I look for you in the lies I tell myself.

I am better off without you,

I deserve better than you,

I can live without you.

When my anger has walked out the door,

Fear settles in, she takes a mug of coffee,

Sits beside me and watches me.

Her eyes dig into my soul,

My soul has long known not to hide from her,

Because the soul knows better, fear loves a mirror

This way she does not spend the night.

I look for you in the lies I tell myself,

because it is easier to set them aside than it is to face the truth.