I sincerely do not.

There are days when work takes the bulk of my focus and then Saturdays when all I want to do is sleep, eat, sleep and drink coffee while listening to my spotify playlist.

There is something about how I choose to live my life and what I value- and for the girl in me seeing my Mom bring us up on her own, taking on jobs, consultancies to be able to provide for us-every time I want to take a step back, I see her and I keep on pushing. Working, setting up goals and tasks to secure financial independence-and this has had me thinking of all the times I should have prioritized rest but never did- and whether I would know when to catch a break.

Until then, I am learning- I am learning to embrace that little girl and I am doing this by:

1. Treating myself to lunch dates/ brunch dates twice a month. There are amazing restaurants in Nairobi which I am yet to explore.
2. Journaling daily- I started this when I was 12 years old and I make sure to write a line or two about my day before going to bed.
3. Buying the books I want to read and not feeling guilty about it.
4. Searching Pinterest for beautiful kitenge, ankara dress designs and having them tailor-made for me
5. Sleeping at 10:30pm and waking up at 7:30am– this is most recent given that I am on medication.
6. Calling my close friends, showing up for them during their milestones- eating out with friends.

So, yes I do not have the work life balance locked in, and the greatest lesson I am learning is that it is okay.