I look for you in the spaces between my memories and desires,
And sometimes, when the world is alight
I see you, shining.

I look for you in the spaces between my memories and desires,
And sometimes, when the world is alight
I see you, shining.

It all came back to me.
The thing I ought to have done but never did.
I always love the lake, and wandering along the shores gives me serenity,
But today I caught a waterfall,
Then it all came back to me, what I should have done five years ago.
I should have told you that I knew about the lies, that I knew your silence was your inability to see the truth I knew about you.
Like that, the calls and texts stopped, and I looked to the stars,
To the lies I wanted to believe on love and just like that you continued in your journey and I soared in mine, until today…
I caught a waterfall, and just like that, I realized that the saddest thing I ever did then was act like I didn’t know what was going on.

Blossom.
Stardust, I heard a woman say that everything grows where it is given room,
Hate where prejudice thrives,
Love where understanding thrives,
Everything blooms where it is given room,
So I thought of here and now,
Of the words I find it easy to type, of the courage I have behind this keyboard,
Of the silent comfort of tapping away, qwerty- they say, but to me Stardust,
It is the fastest pen I’ve ever held,
My fingers and eyes concur, so wherever you are, bloom.

I wore a red dress today.
I have always wanted to wear one, so…I bought one online and wore it today.
Of all the things I have wanted to do for myself,
It got me thinking of all the things I’ve desired,
of the what if’s that killed my wishes.
I wore a red dress today and I loved it so much I spilled coffee on it while twirling.
Blame it on the music that carried me away.
I wore a red dress today.
It got me thinking of all the things I’ve desired,
and why of all of them, I have never bought myself flowers.

I look forward to the hour before dawn,
When dusk, dawn and hopes align…when silence is deafening,
And the world is about to arise from slumber, yearning.
I look forward to the hour before dawn,
When I finally set the voice in my head free and she shouts into the void of my fears.
Then the world, from rays of red, orange finally bloom into yellow.
I may be here or there,
You may be but stardust,
But you and I know the look and we honor our fears as we do our dreams.
Here and there.

I hope you find your way home.
Travel the world, rise and fall,
And when you put one foot in front of the other,
or wander,
I hope you find your way home.

Lahaula visited me during the King’s mourning ceremony following an invitation from Prince Jabali to their kingdom with news. She smiled with renewed life and talked to me about the things she had seen at the palace and all the while I kept my thoughts hidden from her. It was something I had been learning while spending time in the singing forest.
“Laana, tell me why is it that your light and the Prince’s light are lost?”
“He blames me for the death of his father.”
“What else are you keeping from me Sister? I feel you slipping away into darkness, is there anything I can do to draw you back?”
“Do not worry about me Lahaula. Prince Jabali will come to ask for my hand in marriage after the King’s burial and I will accept. What I do not know is how I will cope with his anger.”
“Ei, I see, however, I want you to accept a gift. She comes from our kingdom and she will attend to you. Her name is Amina. Her tongue never stays still but when it comes to you, she will always do what’s right. I ask you to care for her, train her because I have a feeling that she knows more about the earth, what grows where and what it can be used for.”

I looked at the young girl standing behind Lahaula for the first time. Her eyes were the color of darkness, a quiet reminder of how far the dawn was. She looked at me then looked away. I smiled and asked her to sit beside me. She nodded and did so and I could see her beautiful toes, feet meant for a princess, but feet that told the story of wars unrivaled by any I had encountered. She lowered her eyes and folded her legs beneath her. Lahaula released the breath she was holding, but I had already seen the girl’s past and her future was only what she could make it to be.
Lahaula stayed with me as her father and his envoys stayed at the palace.
I came across these five insights on writing that I absolutely love and I hope you do too.
Step into a scene and let it drip from your fingertips.- MJ Bush
Write until you surprise yourself.
You can’t blame a writer for what the characters say.- Truman Capote
What would you write if you weren’t afraid?- Mary Karr
A drop of ink may make a million think. – Lord Byron
Have a great week and I hope you surprise yourself too!
We have traveled the world
Of joys and sorrows,
Of expectations and disappointments.
I know not what awaits us tomorrow,
We have traveled the world,
Only to return as friends.

Go where you are celebrated,
It’s what they say,
It’s what I hear and sometimes on days like this,
It’s what I aspire to.
So, here I am…present in this moment, with myself,
Grateful.