I had coffee with my emotions today.

This happened some time between 5AM and 6AM…of all the days,

I had to summon my feelings on a Wednesday.

Oh, and how they came…some in caravans, others like thunder, but one…was ever so present, but just unmoved, until I thought of you.

I had coffee with my emotions today,

I have held onto hurt for eighteen years, not days, years,

And today I let her go,

Watched her slip right through my fingers into the daylight.

You asked me once “why do you smile when you’re hurting?”

I couldn’t speak up, and like you always do, you hugged me and held onto me…you acknowledged the weight of my pain but never tried to take it from me.

I had coffee with my emotions today and when it was time,

I picked up the phone, dialed your number…

And after 3 rings…she picked up…”hello…”

I had coffee with my emotions,

Now…Love, I think I ought to pick up a racket or a baseball bat and tell those emotions what’s up!