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  • Updates on the reading and writing life

    September 14th, 2018

    Today started out great.

    It means I got to do most of what I wanted done, and that a cup of coffee was involved, a few good conversations and a walk around town.

    However the best part was being able to listen to Kiss Daniel’s Laye without breaking into dance on the street. If you saw some girl in a grey t-shirt, khaki shorts, black ngomas and a maroon back pack dancing in the ‘Plastics aisle’ at Choppies in Kisumu, please don’t rule her out as crazy, she could have been me.

    This song right here:

    Let’s get a move on, so I have not done much writing given that I was unwell earlier this week. What I have done so far is to take notes and I realized that when you are half dizzy, you can actually come up with some pretty solid stuff, even though I can barely make out what I wrote, I feel quite refreshed.

    So, I sent my entry for this years Miles Morland Writing Scholarship. I’d like to submit another entry too for the Commonwealth Writers Short Story Prize. If there’s one competition that I have never failed to submit an entry, it’s got to be the Commonwealth Short story prize, but hey, it’s always a great feeling piling up the regret letters, looking at that email banner and smiling thinking…”I’ll win this.”

    On reading:

    I am looking forward to reading three titles this weekend:

    McMillan Cottom has crafted a black woman’s cultural bible, as she mines for meaning in places many of us miss and reveals precisely how—when you’re in the thick of it—the political, the social, and the personal are almost always one and the same.

    How do you recognize the love of your life? Do you have butterflies in your stomach? Do you see showers of sparks and fireworks as soon as he steps into the room? Or, is your big love composed of something quieter? Annie longs for nothing more in her life than someone to love her with his whole heart. With Holden, this wish seems fulfilled, and the two build their own world. But how much pain can happiness bear? When something utterly shocking happens, Annie’s life becomes unstable, and nothing is as it once was. Then, she unexpectedly bumps into her teenage love Seth, and her life is completely thrown off balance—especially when fate intends its own tragic story.

    The template comes in three parts provided in three books: 1) The Archetypal Big Debt Cycle (which explains the template), 2) 3 Detailed Cases (which examines in depth the 2008 financial crisis, the 1930’s Great Depression, and the 1920’s inflationary depression of Germany’s Weimar Republic), and 3) Compendium of 48 Cases (which is a compendium of charts and brief descriptions of the worst debt crises of the last 100 years). Whether you’re an investor, a policy maker, or are simply interested, the unconventional perspective of one of the few people who navigated the crises successfully, A Template for Understanding Big Debt Crises will help you understand the economy and markets in revealing new ways.


    That’s all from me today, have a great weekend!

     

  • In my feelings…or not

    September 12th, 2018

    I am in my feelings this week. I think it has something to do with being sick, because for someone who believed that she’d not be struck down by Malaria, well, it proved me wrong. The past three days have been as nauseating, sweaty, dizzy and full of a bitter after taste as only Malaria can serve.

    I discovered that I love oranges.

    Yes, well, I am more of a banana girl, and oranges were just not my thing, until Sunday evening! So, yeah, I definitely like oranges.

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    Before I get ahead of myself, let me state that inasmuch as I never liked the fruit, my favorite color is Orange and I can drink Fanta Orange any time!

    I know, I am in my feelings and if you are like me, you’ve probably counted the number of “I”s that have made it into this post thus far.

    It feels good to write today and staring at a computer screen without getting a major headache is the most welcome relief.

    I wanted to write another short story series for this coming week, something that’s closer to my heart in life, a bit of my life experiences that meant something and in a way still do, and now I am glad that I can finally settle down and get to it. (It’s a bit different from the Love in the Office series).

    My music playlist has shifted these few days and I find myself listening to these five songs on repeat and I’m stuck on them:

    • I’m Out by Ciara feat. Nicki Minaj
    • Shut Up and Dance by Walk The Moon
    • Like a Boy by Ciara
    • Super Bass by Nicki Minaj
    • Mirrors by Justin Timberlake

    My friend says that I am a ball of energy and she can never contain herself around me. She also adds that I have my guard way up high that I never let anyone in, and she fears what tomorrow holds for me and I always tell her not to worry and stuff my face with cake. Well, I am in my feelings, and I’m taking each feeling as it comes, for now, I am looking outside the window…knowing that it’s coming to rain and I feel like I could write this new feeling a letter and give it a piece of my mind.

    Have a lovely evening.

  • Like Cocoa

    September 5th, 2018

    I love you like Cocoa,

    Rich, dark, bitter…dry, brewed, roasted.

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    leighann renee took this/Unsplash

    I love you like Cocoa,

    Slender, slighted, sentimental…how is it then that your eyes flicker and your soul wanes?

    How is it then that you slip through my fingers every time I grasp you?

    I love you like Cocoa,

    You who dares to bare your soul,

    You who saves yourself, a tiny spark for every person you meet, leaving nightlights wherever you go.

    You who dares to demand a ransom of mine,

    You who knows what to say to get what you want.

    Is it not obvious this love of mine?

    Is it not like the muddy waters you cross in your village, dirty, blurry but still runs deep?

    I love you like Cocoa, but we both know how tumultuous that kind of love is.

     

  • 8 Funny African Proverbs

    September 4th, 2018

    Africans are known for a lot of things, but today, I’d like to share eight proverbs that crack me up every time.

    1.  Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large numbers.
    2. Anger, no matter how hot it is, can never cook yam.
    3. A monkey that eats grass instead of banana is a goat.
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      Ian Macharia took this/Unsplash.com

       

    4. However much the buttocks are in a hurry, they will always remain at the back.
    5. A female tongue gets things more easily than a strong man.
    6. You cannot run and scratch your ass at the same time.
    7. If men swear that they want to harm you when you are asleep, you can go to sleep. If women say so, stay awake.
    8. No matter how powerful a man is, he cannot make the rains fall on his farm alone.
  • Why do you do good?

    September 3rd, 2018

    Do you do good for good or for good’s sake?

    I was talking to small scale, Capsicum farmers in Vihiga this past week, and my intention was to get their views on horticultural farming. It was almost noon as I approached them. They had been told someone was coming to talk to them and interview them about farming and the perks of farming, but they were never told it would be someone “as tiny” as me (their words, not mine). So, I sat down, pulled out my notebook and made my intentions clear- I wanted to hear their experience, both good and bad. I would jot down one or two things, ask to quote one or two phrases, take pictures and share the final review with their sponsors.

    One of them asked “Where do you take this information? We have been interviewed and our photos have been taken so many times, but nothing comes out of it.”

    I nodded, knowing that when he said something, he meant monetary gain and having worked in various communities across Western Kenya, it is no secret that non-governmental organizations have in the past, and some still do, give handouts to people in areas of intervention.

    However, he got me thinking about the surge of doing good and posting it on Facebook. There have been many posts that filled my feed which involved someone posting a story about ‘hey, I saw this homeless guy, and bought him food,’ or ‘this woman in a wheelchair was having a tough time crossing the street and I helped.’

    So, do we do good for good or for good’s sake?

    Is it for the number of likes, comments, retweets, reposts or shares that we flaunt what we did to the gods and goddesses of social media?

    Tenda wema,Nenda zako.

    As I was looking into what’s been written on good deeds, I also learned that museums and historic sites banned, visitors from taking pictures for varied reasons from copyright to maintaining order. I digress, but it’s not to say that there is no power or benefit of doing a good deed.

    I still struggle with this because I have done it in the name of work, in drafting donor reports, success stories and following leads on impact stories for various organizations that I have worked for. It still baffles me ‘should we give with one hand while taking a picture with the other?’

    At what point should we do a good deed and not tell a soul about it or expect a good deed in return?

    For what it’s worth, there’s this beautiful saying we have here in Kenya that goes “Tenda wema, nenda zako,” if I were to directly translate it, it’d be something like “do good, go your own way.”

    Do you do good for good or for good’s sake?

    Honestly speaking, I don’t know, not anymore and sometimes I wonder, where does that leave me?

  • Saturday: Take a Chance

    September 1st, 2018

    Matthew parked outside Diana’s apartment block.

    He had called earlier to confirm if their lunch date was on, and she had mumbled a few things, one along the lines of affirmation.

    Their night out had involved watching her dancing and loosen up, in between breaks she would catch his eye and then lose herself in the music. He adjusted his car seat, leaned back in for a short nap as he waited.


    Diana tapped the window as soon as she was close enough to see that Matthew was inside the car.

    “Hey…sorry, I was just resting a bit as I waited for you. Are you ready to go?”

    “I am here, aren’t I?”

    “Yes it seems you are.”

    “Thanks for coming to get me. So, where are we going for lunch?”

    “There’s this cool place in Mlolongo, if you are up for a road trip, we could make it there and back, what do you say?”

    “Okay, besides, I do not have to be at work this Monday, so I have all the time in the world, let’s go.”

    “Look, about that, will you be coming back? I mean, it just feels like you have accepted the Director’s decision so easily, I don’t know…if it were me, I’d put up a fight.”

    “Look, you mean well, and some part of you feels like I have been wronged, but if there is something that I learned a long time ago is that, if someone pays me to work, they can decide to stop paying me. Now, the Director has not stopped paying me, he has reduced my responsibilities and I have a few weeks to make things right, to seek other opportunities or even take a break and re-evaluate my role in this company.”

    “But, you’ve been here for three years, that guy came this year, how is it that he gets first priority?”

    “He is family and if the boss thinks he’s important, then so be it.”

    “Will you be coming back to work after your vacation?”


    It might have been the same smile that she gave him, or how she shook her head as she strapped herself using the seat belt that made him look out the window. He’d not turned on the ignition but even then, he could not help the feeling that filled him whenever he was around Diana.

    She was bossy, unpredictable, fun and sometimes completely selfish- and he knew a thing or two about office romance, besides there was that time he hooked up with the ka-light chic at the reception. There was also the time when he could not help but take that partner to Mombasa, but with Diana, he couldn’t figure out where they stood.

    She’d not answered him and he knew she would not.

    For the love of his sanity, he could not understand just how much he wished she would stay and choose him, well…if she could choose him and keep him, then he’d be glad, but even then, would she come back?

  • Friday: Can we talk for a minute?

    August 31st, 2018

    Fridays were Matthew’s worst work days. He rated Fridays high up with Wednesdays because all requisitions and budgets had to be approved by the various signatories by Friday and this back and forth prevented him from enjoying the ‘furahi day’ hype.

    At the morning brief, he’d shied away from any updates until the Director looked his way and even then, he knew he would have to speak up.

    “How are we doing accounts wise Matthew?”

    “Salaries should have reflected in everyone’s accounts by 5pm yesterday. I think we are good on that front. If there’s anyone who has any concern regarding their salary they can either see the HR or come to the accounts department after confirming details with the HR.”

    “Thank you Matthew. Now, I would also like to say that from September, Charles would be heading the Marketing department, we are switching things up, making a few moves here and there to ensure creativity and that we meet the needs of our clients.”

    He’d looked at Diana but she would not meet his eyes. Everyone in the room tried to get her attention, but she was not having none of it. He had made his way straight to his office and was welcomed by a full tray of files and invoices which he started going through.


    Diana went straight to her desk after the meeting. Helen and James caught up with her and it was James who spoke up, “Dee, did you know about the Director’s decision?”

    “No, I had a feeling that he would give Charles the upper hand but I did not expect this.”

    “Why didn’t you speak up?”

    “Helen, do I own this company?”

    “No, but you contribute to its success! Wewe, unajua Charles, he is going to act like he’s a god and make us do all the work then take the credit! He does not like me, Dee! Do you remember when he said that I was just a blonde barbie? What are we going to do about this?”

    “The Director said Charles would head the marketing department and as far as I am concerned we are the Marketing and PR department. Relax, it’s just work, right? Give Charles a chance, he’s your boss now.”

    “Wait…what do you mean our boss? Dee?”

    “Helen, please don’t stress about it, it’s just work…now, I have to go and congratulate Charles.”

    Diana did not wait for them to convince her otherwise. She looked back at them as she descended the stairs and smiled. Her Friday was turning into one unexpected festival and she couldn’t help but smile about it. She was looking forward to that tea break!


    Charles had his back to the door when Diana walked into his office.

    His desk was stacked with boxes with the computer gathering dust on the far end of it. She waited for him to turn towards her.

    “So, you finally came to your senses?” he asked.

    “Congratulations Charles. I look forward to seeing more of your concepts this coming month.”

    “Well, thanks.”

    Diana straightened her skirt, brushing her fingers slightly on her wrist watch, she smiled once more at him and took the exit.


    She was heading to the kitchenette hoping to get Martha to save her a chapati when Matthew called her. She looked up, waved and he signaled her up to his office. She shook her head and pointed down. He shook his head, held out one finger- but she insisted, pointed down and crossed her arms across her chest.

    Matthew took the stairs two at time almost barreling into another staff as he made his way to Diana.

    “Why couldn’t you come up to my office Diana?”

    “Why couldn’t you come down to me, Matthew?”

    “I see, I’m not going to win this argument, so tell me, how are you holding up?”

    “I’m fine. I was just going to the kitchenette to ask Martha to save me a chapo, do you want one?”

    “Wait, chapo? Now? Why? Are you that hungry?”

    “Yes, besides, now that you are here, we can have an early tea break. Let’s go.”

    Diana took his hand and dragged him to the kitchenette, and Matthew who followed couldn’t help but smile. She was crazy that much was obvious, but something about her joy reminded him of a devious plan. He took in her legs, lean arms and hips as she led him.

    “Diana, can we talk for a minute?”

    She pulled him into the kitchenette and went on to set aside tea cups as he watched. She pointed to a table on the balcony where he proceeded to sit. It was a dull morning, the kind that promised no sunshine, but lots of drizzles and dark clouds. How could she be happy with the Director’s decision? How could she be this happy on such a day? He was caught up in his thoughts that he startled when her hand covered his. He looked at her hand and then into her eyes, “why are you surprised Matthew?”

    “Well, I am not surprised…I mean, like, wait…what are you doing?”

    “I am sitting here, having tea and chapo and waiting to hear what this talk is all about.”

    “Um, okay…well, so, um…thanks for the tea.”

    “Matthew, just spit it.”

    “What are you doing this evening?”

    “I feel like going out.”

    “Out as in out out?”

    “Wait, are you eighteen or something? Yes, I feel like going out, dancing and just having a good time!”

    “Are you okay Diana? You are acting weird. I mean, first you say nothing during the meeting and now instead of fighting for your position, you are busy smiling and playing nice, aren’t you pissed off?”

    “Matthew, I am beyond pissed! I am vexed but grammar aside, I am choosing to fight my own battles. The Director still maintains my salary, he has reduced my responsibilities and now I have the opportunity to build on my portfolio. I am also getting a two week vacation which is just the icing on the cake.”

    “Diana, look…he may be playing nice before he decides to fire you.”

    “It’s just work Matthew.”

    “No, it’s not just work Diana. This is your investment, your expertise, your knowledge, your time and your personality. Do you know how pathetic that guy was at the pitch meeting? I mean, you had to step in and tone down the ego in that room to make the clients understand the angle of advertising that your team had created! It’s not just work!”

    “So, we are way over a minute, Matthew, what did you want to talk about?”

    “I was wondering, that is if, you’d like to go out with me. I know this nice restaurant in Upperhill that I’d like to dine at, but only if you’d want to. I understand that you have a lot on your plate and maybe, I don’t know…”

    “Matthew, what’s the question?”

    “Would you like to go out on a date with me?”

    “Yes.”

    “Yes?”

    “If that’s a foreign word to you, I could always say “No,” and then we can see where this goes.”


    Diana withdrew her hand just in time to see Charles and the Director walking towards the balcony each with a cup of tea in their hand. It was ten minutes to the ten o’clock tea break.

    She smiled.

  • Thursday: Phonecalls

    August 30th, 2018

    Diana had come to two conclusions: she would ask the Director to assign Charles a team and she would spend as much time as she wished with Matthew. The first conclusion was well received by her boss but not so much by Charles who had the audacity to ask “what work does she have that makes her so busy?”

    In true Diana form, she had answered him right there, “you could always try and know just how much, by pushing for my termination and then taking my job, or better yet, you could get years of experience.”

    The Director had just sighed and asked Charles to leave his office. Diana was too restless to sit down and even as she felt him get out of his seat and move towards her, she could not simmer down, “Diana, you have been working with me for three years. In those three years, I have never had any cause for alarm, because you are well aware of what your duties are. Charles is a boy, he is yet to grow up.”

    “Sir, that is where you are wrong! He is paying taxes and to me that’s not a boy! He is responsible enough to want attention and credit but he does not want to work for it.”

    “You are right.”

    “I know he is your family. I know that you are doing your very best to keep him focused, but you ought to warn him, because the more he goes around telling everyone that he is in-charge, the less they’ll respect you and that is not fair.”

    “So, are you worried about the level of respect I command or the fact that Charles is slacking off?”

    “The latter will result into the former, Sir.”

    “You always speak your mind Diana, be careful with that. Everyone is not as accommodating as I am.”


    It did not come to a surprise to her when she bumped into Christina during tea break. The weather had been all over the place and what started as part chilly was now breaking into a full blown drizzle.

    She was happy that her negotiation with the Director had earned her a raise. It was about time she got that and now, if she could focus on her studies, she could look into a higher position by the end of the year.

    “So, tell me Dee, how’s it going with your new man?”

    “What man?”

    “Ai, si, you and Mattoh, ama you guys are not a thing? And don’t tell me you are just friends, because the high and mighty math guru does not just come to your floor to count numbers. I hear he was very worried when you did not show up to work, so tell me, how are things with him?”

    “You have told me not to tell you, so I won’t.”

    “Eish, kwani, what do you mean?”

    “You said it, you don’t want to hear that we are just friends, so there’s nothing for me to tell you.”

    “I can’ believe you! But, listen, listen, so do you like him or are you just a ka-watermelon?”

    “What do you mean by ka-watermelon?”

    “I mean, are you fifty fifty about him?”

    “Look, you are going to arrive to a different conclusion, no matter what I say and that’s okay with me, but when you think about it, let me know and maybe I could listen to what you have to say.”

    “Ooh, okay, sawa tu, so now you won’t tell your friend anything.”

    “We are not friends, you only approach me for entertainment, please.”

    “Eish, and you are in some mood today, ama bae did not call you so now you are mad?”

    Diana sipped her tea, flashed Christina a smile and reached for her phone.

  • Wednesday:Highlighters

    August 29th, 2018

    It took every ounce of resolve he had not to reach out and shake Diana. Did she like him? Maybe, but even if she did not, what use was it seeking him when she needed him? He could do better, but even then, there was something about her that called out to him.

    He would never admit to his friends his reason for staying at the company.

    He would never even let her know just how much he sought her presence, listening in for her input during weekly meetings, leaning towards her as she spoke or even just walking her to the bus stop.

    When he snapped out of his reverie, she’d taken a step back and was rubbing her forehead. “Look, Matthew, I am not the best company today. Can we go through that document tomorrow?”

    “Go home Diana, we’ll work on this whenever you want to. No pressure.”

    “Are you sure?”

    “Yes, now go home, get some rest.”

    “Thanks.”

    She’d then taken the stairs her hand caressing the rail as she descended, every step, as measured as her conflicting thoughts and there was nothing Matthew could do about it. She was at the realm of her department and someone as minute as Charles couldn’t help but make it impossible for her to excel.


    Wednesday mornings were learning sessions at the company and Matthew knew how to wiggle his way out the sessions because one, he hated taking that half hour learning when he ought to consolidate budgets and two, sometimes the sessions involved webinars that he could seek out in his own time.

    He took out his phone to dial Diana’s number. His thoughts went back to the conversation they had yesterday and he slid his phone into his pocket. If she needed him, she would come to him.

    There was a meeting he had been scheduled to attend later on in the day. He thought of driving to the other end of town and it killed him because that meant spending a fortune on petrol. He could do well with parking his car outside his apartment, it’d save him a lot, but boarding matatus was not his cup of tea.

    He pushed in the door to his office and the first person he saw was Diana sitting on his chair, a highlighter in her hand with a document that was more green than it had been black and white.

    “You are sitting in my chair.”

    “Good morning to you too Matthew, it’s the only comfortable one I could find, besides they were cleaning the other offices. Are you going to sit down or just stand there staring at me?”

    “You know what, I just don’t get you…like, I mean…you know what, forget it, you are here.”

    “I am here.”

     

     

  • Tuesday: Staplers

    August 28th, 2018

    Diana thrust the documents into Helen’s hands after the meeting. She needed a drink, something hot and bitter to save her from the rage within.

    She had refused to share details of the conversation she had with the Director with anyone in the office. The rumors swirled. She would not cower, Charles had been the wrong person to assign the marketing role, and she’d said so, but she had never thought she would be picking his slack.

    Reviewing every report and action Charles took was something she had never signed up on.


     

    She looked around the office, grabbed her handbag and took to the stairs.

    Matthew met her on the second floor landing. He looked from her bag to her coat and neither spoke for a moment. He stepped aside and she continued walking.

    He watched her descend four more steps before she stopped and turned to him, “Aren’t you going to ask where I am going?”

    “No, if you feel the need to tell me, I know you will. I called you yesterday.”

    “Yes, I saw your missed calls but I didn’t have time to get back to you. Did you need something?”

    “I was calling to check up on you.”

    “I am fine, now I have to leave this building before I lose all my senses.”

    “Do you need company?”

    “I am not very good company Matthew. Look, you are a good guy, kind and you put up with me but listen, there’s just…don’t hassle.”

    “The nice guy speech? So, I have officially been put in the friend zone, is that it?”

    “Look, Matthew, it’s too early to get into an argument, thinking of which, where were you going to? This is not your floor.”

    “I was coming to you. There’s a budget that Charles sent that I have rejected and he’s not making any amendments I suggest, so the boss asked me to talk to you.”

    “I see.”

    “Yeah, and it’s like a bad time, si, I’ll come later.”

    “How about tomorrow? I just can’t deal right now.”

    “If you need company, I can drive you around town for a while and give you time to think and all.”

    “Don’t you have work to do?”

    “Kazi mob sana, but it was a suggestion, you can take it or leave it.” Diana took the four stairs back to Matthew, he was still holding the green file in his hand. He smirked as she approached, “You can be mean sometimes Matthew. I’ll see you tomorrow, you can drive around town by yourself if you choose to. While we are at it, don’t call me unless it’s something important.”

     

     

     

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